'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.'
'There is strength within the sorrow, There is beauty in our tears
Even what the enemy means for evil
You turn it for our good, You turn it for our good and for your glory'
So after the stormy anger has had a chance to subside, God has shown Himself faithful. He let me have my moment, my great big noisy fuss, and then gently pointed me to evidences of His hand.....
Jared had a chance to tell me more about his afternoon at family court. He was able to talk a good bit with Poppi, mostly about Dora & Diego and their case, but also about our experiences thus far in this fostering journey. In the middle of their conversation, Poppi just looked at Jared and said, "why are you & your family doing this, fostering?" A perfect open door for Jared to share the gospel with this precious, precious dad. Right there outside that horrid courtroom, the scene of so much heartbreak, Jared shared the answer to all of our deepest need. He shared with Poppi the good news of Jesus.
The more I reflect on that conversation, the more my anger just melts away. What if one reason for this seemingly horrible situation is for Mama M and Poppi (and all of us) to see more of Christ? Maybe even for His grace to soften their hearts and bring them to Himself?
*a little background on Poppi* he grew up in "the system," ran away from his foster home when he was 13 and ended up in a boys' home for the next 6 years. As a result, he's pretty hardened to church and all things spiritual. I pray that he might see the difference that is Jesus between his experience in care and Dora & Diego's.